'I'm still the same Colton everybody met on TV.

Underwood told Roberts that he did love Rudolph but wishes he could have 'been courageous enough to fix myself before I broke anybody else.' In 2019, Underwood started dating Cassie Rudolph from his season of 'The Bachelor,' and the pair broke things off in 2020 after Rudolph filed and then dropped a restraining order against the reality star. Underwood said there were even moments he had suicidal thoughts prior to coming out. He explained he's known since he was a teenager but prayed he would be straight. And the next step in all of this was sort of letting people know.' And I came to terms with that earlier this year and have been processing it. I've hated myself for a long time,' Underwood said on the show. Underwood came out to Robin Roberts on 'Good Morning America' in April after previously denying his sexuality to the public.